222
I went to an event by 222, which is essentially like time left if you know what that is. And I really felt like I was the life of the party for my group, I had people kind of hovering around me and if I went to a different group or made new friends I would eventually have my old group end up coming to me. I made a lot of new friends and people that are interested in doing several different things, and I very much consider it a success. I also want to kind of be a little bit intentional with reminding myself that I was good at being social and I was very well received by others. I also feel like I was very charismatic and entertaining with my stories, and I was consistently making people laugh. I remember that one reel that talked about how interesting people constantly have applicable stories and I kind of felt that way where I was able to just naturally have a lot of related stories that I felt like I was able to tell in a very entertaining manner and I was even complimented on my storytelling at one point. I just wanna take a little bit to be proud of myself for that and to acknowledge that as a strength of mind that I’ve worked hard for.
Additionally there was this one girl named A, who I was friendly to from the beginning but was pretty judgmental and honestly rude. When I would make friendly comments or conversations she would be pretty rude or would casually throw in put downs towards me, and this really does remind me of L. I essentially just stopped interacting with her, and she ended up kind of gravitating back towards me mostly because I was kind of at the heart of social interaction. But she still continued to be rude to me and so I just didn’t really go out of my way to interact with her too much. I invited some other people to a game night at some point in the future, mostly just checking for interest and I didn’t explicitly ask her because she wasn’t directly in that conversation and I wasn’t going to go super out of my way to invite her. When I finally dropped off everyone at their cars, I was talking with another person that I enjoyed meeting, and her. I was telling them a couple of different stories, and I eventually asked if she was interested in board games or specifically social deduction games and she said she was. She seemed friendly then. It kind of feels like there’s as weird manipulation thing almost of kind of being somewhat rude to them, and by that I mean not going out of my way to engage with them or to involve them with things which I do think is fair. But I feel like once that person gets that social feedback that their behavior of being rude gets them that response, they become a little bit more friendly.