An Open Letter

So this is gonna be a little bit of a different kind of post I guess, I’m right now driving to get some food and I’m just using voice to text to dictate this out. I guess I kind of wanted to somewhat document how buying a house has been, and I guess just in line with everything else that I do here just venting a little bit to put down my thoughts somewhere else. Buying a house has been pretty stressful, but right now the stress that I’m dealing with is actually moving in. There’s a lot of different things that I’ve had to kind of do that are coming off guard, like right now the big problem is the water heater is just not working consistently, I have to sometimes get it working by running a diagnostic code and then turning on the sink and kitchen faucets on hot at the same time for a little bit and then the hot water heater kicks in. I think this is something that can get fixed by talking with like some plumber or something like that and I think that the one you’re home insurance that comes with buying the house should cover pork I think so it shouldn’t be like a horrible co-pay but it still is like $100 probably. It’s also weird because I have to figure out all the existing things that they have such as fuel electrical work for all of the Internet of things stuff. On top of it there are some issues with the Wi-Fi because I don’t actually know where the fiber box is, but they have like a networking closet and so I was able to figure out which wire it was for that with my dad‘s help and then get my Internet working. I also haven’t unpacked anything really yet other than just a bare bear essentials like bathroom stuff to brush and my bed. I don’t even have my computer set up yet. It’s pretty lonely also in the house once E left. I’m also stressed because I’m right now leaving Hash alone for the first time in the new place and I really hope that he’s OK, because I really need him to be able to feel comfortable enough being home alone so that I can do stuff like go to work. I’m pretty stressed I don’t know if I’ve mentioned that before ha ha. There’s also other stuff like random existing electronics that I need to somehow put into my name like the blink camera on the front door doesn’t seem to let me connect to it pretty easily which is gonna be an interesting thing to deal with, and then what’s it called there’s also trouble with the carpet. While moving in a bit of the carpet ripped which really fucking sucks, and then on top of it Hash threw up three different times on the carpet and so there’s a little bit of a stain in one of the spots now. That makes me consider changing to a different kind of floor, but it’s a whole other hassle there.

There are so many different things I need to do for this house and I’m honestly so overwhelmed with it. I haven’t been keeping to my habits either like reading which I want to fix.

I’m so exhausted from all the moving and headaches. We didn’t even have hot water, let alone Internet.

It’s weird to move so quickly. I hope this is my home for at least half a decade.

E helped me move a ton more stuff and I’m stressed but things are slowly settling down.

I’m packing up and it’s rough, but I’m so excited. I just want E to move in with me already.

I went over a game with E, and it was a perfect game to review. We quickly went over it, and she was tilted but receptive. We then queued up another game, and the average was plat 4 and she got MVP and carried our team! I was so fucking proud.

I’m a bit worried about living alone in that big house by myself for a while. It’s not different than right now, but the fact that it’s just so big and empty is a bit lonely. It’s such a huge priviledge but I’m also a little bit scared if I’m being honest.

We got the keys to the house, and it’s both amazing but also super overwhelming. There’s so much shit to be done, but I’m happy.

I think E has an incredible mother. It’s something bittersweet for her to be so good that it hurts me by comparison. But at the same time I still have E and I even have her mother in a way, and I’m so grateful for that. We agreed to play until we won one, and it’s not 3:20 AM and we hugged eachother when we finally won.