A badge
I think it hurts so much because of how much I love her. And how I still love her – just not in a way where I want her in my life. So maybe this pain is a badge of honor to myself. This shows how much I loved, and how much I care. If this didn't hurt, that would mean she didn't matter to me and I didn't trust her, but it hurts and so I do. It hurts like hell, but I will endure as this is the cost of love, and one I am willing to pay.
I think all we can do is have faith and endure. I will love again, and I will be loved again.