An Open Letter

While writing my gratitude list I realized how I was happy today about how S, B, N, and K were all proactively interacting with me. I found it surprisingly counterintuitive because I wasn't really trying to super get them to like me, and I've been pretty deranged. I'm happy to include people of course, but a lot of the time I'm happily lobbing grenades into conversations to make myself and A laugh, and actively punting opportunities (as far as I can tell) for that reason. I've been having an absolute BLAST with A, and it feels like others seeing me being so comfortable in my own skin and having so much fun makes them want to interact with me. It's somewhat adjacent to playing hard to get, but this is me just not playing any game. I'm fully surrounding myself with people who respect me and enrich my life, and then I prioritize my happiness. And then people want to join that, which is of course fine by me. Just strange how it works, and I wanted to notarize that I guess.