An Open Letter

There’s a girl I’m kind of interested in that likes the kind of rock music that I do, and I said that I would make a playlist. I like to take pride in my purposefully esoteric or cryptic playlist names, and I settled for vitality in a trenchcoat. I guess the story for that one is how I really like the saying that anger is just a grief in a trenchcoat, and I think to me rock music is vitality – the willingness to live. I think the energy that it brings and that it makes me feel is what kind of saved me, during that period of time in my life where I quit medication and went on a last ditch effort. I think that energy and aggression from the music helped me feel not alone in a way. It’s kind of like a conscious choice for me, when I start to slip again I can either choose to fall deeper into it with sad music, or I can rage against it and I’m incredibly grateful for rock music for supporting me there.