An Open Letter

The scary part is how it feels like I don’t have control over it. Like I can do my best to be ready for it I guess, or at least I can work on that, but I can’t control if it will happen. And also there’s so much more to it that I don’t even want to consider because of how hard it could be. I hope it happens. But I also find myself now wanting it, so that contradicts what I’ve learned.