American Girl
My god, music just sounds so fucking good. I get so overwhelmed, I want to cry. These are so beautifully not happy tears, and not sad. They’re these feelings just bursting to get out of my body any way possible, whether it’s through tears, vommit, dance, or just gurgles coming out of my throat. It’s like I’m a conduit for this just HUMAN feeling, that I can’t describe in any way other than holding back sobs. I’m so fucking happy. It feels like the human experience is blasting through my mind, each arp, synth, even the fucking absence of sound fills me so fucking damn full. I’m a cup not just full, but drowning in a sweet honey nectar with no viscosity at all. I’m both falling and soaring at the same time. I’m not just happy I’m not dead, I’m happy I got the opportunity to be here right now. It’s enough to make it worth it.