And god it feels good.
It is exactly 8 hours after when I started this lab. And with that, I’m done. I did it all myself, and I believe that it’s all good to go! I took no breaks in between and just finished the entire thing. I am going to take this quarter by storm.
S did something that was almost dangerously nice. I don’t doubt in my mind that they value me as a friend. I say dangerous because I feel like it sets the bar way higher than it was before. I’m obviously not expecting everyone to compete with that, but also it reminds me what I don’t have to settle for. God, I actually don’t feel like a burden. Things have consistently been nice. Even when both of us are busy, I don’t feel like anything bad is happening. I’m a big apprehensive because this feels like a sustainably healthy relationship, and I think that’s a scary thing to have faith in. It’s like hope, but at the same time, I think it’s so worth it to risk it on things like this.
I’m genuinely happy nowadays. I wake up and I find myself singing to music, dancing while walking, and just happy. God, I’m happy. I’m happy to be alive. I’ve been spending time with the people I love, especially my online friends I’ve been friends with for years. It’s interesting because we’re all busy, but we once in a while can line up and make up for it. I love my friends.