An Open Letter

Tomorrow I am going on a dating game show! How excited and I think it’s gonna be a fun time and my friends are gonna be there so it will be a lot of laughs one way or another. I just wanted to mention that.

I played tennis today with friends, the first time in a long time, and unfortunately, my tennis elbow came back in a very big way. It got so bad to the point where I had to sit down because it hurt too much to hold a racket, and I found in my bag a compression thing for that reason, and I almost couldn’t fit it over my forearm. I have been training my forearms a lot recently, and they are something that I get a lot of compliments towards, but at the same time is something where I look at them and I feel like I see them so small. I think it’s one of those things where it looks nice nice and vascular, and compared to the rest of my frame, it looks good or at least OK, but compared to my mental image of a random American dad, I am still a boy. And I guess all the considered I still am young. But when I tried putting that wrap on it somewhat short circuit, my brain and circumvented that dysmorphia, and I realized this circumference of them. It is a little bit sad how all the jokes about the Gym being a gateway to body dysmorphia have merit to them. But at the end of the day in the worst case, it is still OK if I am happy with myself for potentially delusional reasons, because other people view me the same.