An Open Letter

Today E really fucking got me. I told her that I have been feeling neglected by her as of recent, and neglected. This week moving and working from home has been very isolating, and it even got so bad that a few days ago I broke down crying. She didn’t follow up and ask me how I was feeling, and also was very distant because she was focused on her school. I made several bids for connection and she rejected them, and when I brought them up today I told her that I needed some space because I was frustrated/hurt by the above. She asked me to talk about it, and then when I did she stopped responding and gave “I’m sorry” as a response to several texts. When I brought it up after a few hours that I felt shitty because it felt like she asked me to explain how I was feeling, and then when I did she just shut down the conversation. I really hoped that she would come out the conversation with a sense of curiosity trying to understand what hurt me, but instead it felt like she just shut down. She then left me on read for over an hour after that. To me I think about flipping the roles and how people would freak out on social media, and say what a shitty boyfriend.