Augh
We were texting and I found out that she was high. The first day I met her, and that that’s something that she does pretty often. It’s not the end of the world, and I had an ex that was a huge stoner. But that’s not really something that I would like you know? And so it kind of does suck but at the same time, everyone has their vices, and so I cannot be too upset or anything like that. I also kind of noticed I’m waiting for her messages and I’m texting her a lot, especially during work, which maybe isn’t great, and I think it’s pretty obvious it really isn’t great. We have our first date in two days and I should not be talking with her this frequently. Additionally, I kind of noticed that I felt lonely today because I didn’t go to the normal social events that I do and I instead played games with my friends, which is not the worst, but overall I guess I was just a little bit socially less saturated than normal, and so I want to make sure that I’m not slipping up and leaving myself into a situation where it might become codependent again.