Can you mourn something you don't have

February 1, 2026

I think E has an incredible mother. It’s something bittersweet for her to be so good that it hurts me by comparison. But at the same time I still have E and I even have her mother in a way, and I’m so grateful for that. We agreed to play until we won one, and it’s not 3:20 AM and we hugged eachother when we finally won.