An Open Letter

I’m not going to lie, I kinda hate Christmas. I feel like the grinch, because it’s just this hate because I never get to participate in it and I just have to watch from the outside. I understand that I’m not the only person in this position, as a lot of my friends don’t get to go home for it either, but it’s a weird kind of pain because I do have my family right here, but it’s just not one that I can really celebrate anything with. I know I really don’t have too many things to complain about in the grand scheme of things, but even things like buying a dream house and all that don’t stop this miserable feeling from being alone. I know that E would want to spend this time with me, but I want her to be happy and not have to also be dragged down by this.