Christmas past

Holy shit she continued to Trauma dump and just doesn’t have the awareness to recognize what she is doing, and I honestly just feel sympathy for her but at the same time I less less want to be her friend if I’m being honest. I think loneliness is a trap because people trying to get out of it look for a quick solution in the form of someone, and it doesn’t really work that way, it’s more of a gradual process that takes consistent efforts from different directions. I feel like recently with both of the women I was at one point interested in, it became a parent that they are not exactly happy with their lives as is, and I think they see me as a way to improve that. And I want to remind myself about how a relationship has a foundation in both of the people, and for the relationship to be a good one it needs both of the people to be happy with their lives as is.