Cliche
It’s kind of weird how catching up on sleep makes such a massive difference on my emotional well-being. Same with exercise. I feel much better today, and I understand that circumstances have changed since then still is really surprising how drastic change that is. This is really weird thing to talk about, but I kind of thought today about why I want a relationship or love in the first place, not because I don’t feel it, but mostly just because I guess I’m not fully sure how to put it into words about why I want it. I think essentially what it boiled down to for me is it doesn’t have to be something magical where someone’s suddenly something that gives you like a purpose in life or anything like that, but I think it’s like an incredibly close friend that you have a lot of proximity with and you can build a shared amount of trust and reliability from and I don’t really think there’s someone better than E in that sense. Sometimes I do get a little bit worried about some minor things, like at certain points I think she is much more comfortable being “weird”, and I think that’s something that isn’t a bad thing, just is something different than what I’m used to. I love her so much, and I honestly get very surprised when I think about what it might be like with her in the future.