Faith in the process
I have been socializing both IRL and online, and online that’s been in the form of spending time in a couple of different communities. I recently found one that I liked, and then I found another one I clicked with REALLY well. I was in call with them today for like 6 hours, and one of them was a pro player in Australia, and he was coaching us and showing us some cool things. He then watched me play with a few others and holy shit I wanted to die so badly LMAO. I played Rengar in fucking Iron and was just inting over and over again. It was agonizing. It was legit so bad I stopped to play Radiohead by myself on the guitar for a bit. I then decided to queue up another two ranked games solo on the smurf account and I even got a penta in one of them. It’s embarrassing because dawg I’m like sweating on an Iron account by myself on my main role on what was my main champ. But I just needed to convince myself that I was able to play him, I guess. Down bad lmao.