An Open Letter

I’ve been really tired for a pretty good amount of time now feel like I have a few days where I am waking up energetic and rested, but more often it feels like I am already tired, I’m yawning all the time and it’s hard to get to focus on things. I also feel like I’m tired with the concept updating. I feel like what I’m looking for is not at all the more I dig into it mentally the more and more filters pile up, making it less than less probable. It ends up culminating in this type of exhaustion when I think about this problem being one that I am ultimately responsible for. It starts to feel like an, and I know that I already struggle with certain things like the way that I haven’t cleaned off the left side of my bathroom counter because I need to move all the things onto the floor and it’s just a very simple problem because I did not have an immediate solution for weeks for months. I have had a cardboard box with the desk supplies that I need to throw out that I haven’t done because I don’t have an easy solution to it. I need to clean my bathroom, but I just don’t do it. And so when I think about the question of solving dating and finding the person who I would ultimately be really happy spending my life, it feels like such an incredibly insurmountable task, but I don’t have a clear direction. I don’t really know what to do.