Fear of too much
I think I learned from my breakup with A that having friends and social connections in place makes breakups much easier, as compared to T. So far I’ve been having such an amazing time with E, and I do feel like this is a lasting relationship. But also I think there has to be some level of responsibility of preparing for a potential worst case, where I neglect other friendships or relationships and then if something happens I’m struggling alone to rebuild stuff.