Feelings fading
A little bit of a short post because It is late and go to bed because I'm fucking exhausted, I think I'm kind of starting to lose feelings because on one hand she has told me that she is not emotionally available and wants to just be friends and see where things go, but also I think there's a couple quirks in the way that we communicate where it feels like any time I try to voice something instead of it being casual or light hearted it feels way too serious, And I also don't really like how she kind assumes that she understands how I'm feeling or things like that without asking for any kind of clarification, and also I just don't know necessarily if our humors line up or if She adds value to my life in the way that I would hope a partner does. Like whenever I get questions from her about somewhat philosophical things or good questions, when I ask her what she thinks she doesn't really have an answer and she mentioned that she often asks questions without having an answer And it kind of worries me because I guess I don't know if she well fleshed out thoughts or the ability to verbalize things either from just a lack of communication or a lack of thinking about the problems or things like that. And it's not like any of these things horrible or red flags I guess, but rather just things that I would like in a relationship, and I guess I'm kind of struggling to find in the more emotional and friend aspects what we are compatible in.