Girls trip
I found out that G was organizing another girls trip. J told me, And even offered to ask her directly about inviting me. G said that this was just going to be a girls trip. It hurts because there was a trip earlier and G said that next time she would absolutely invite me, and it kind of feels like I’m getting my hopes crushed after getting them raised. I know that there may be valid reasons for it, but it very much hurts in the same way that my childhood did when I would get excluded from things with friends because they were girls and I was not. And it feels like it’s the same thing happening again.
S: G is planning another trip, and explicitly did not invite me because it is going to be a girls trip.
T: it sucks because I don’t see why I couldn’t be invited, and additionally G said that next time she would invite me.
F: I feel like I’m being excluded, and it’s because of my gender. I feel like the friends I consider close are not actually that close to me.
B: I feel like shit, and I pull away from my friendships.
T: This might just be a girls trip in the sense of an existing friend group, and G does enjoy interacting with me and would want to go on a trip, but they already have their established friend group.
F: honestly it still hurts a lot. But I think it hurts a little bit less so. I can talk with my therapist and try to figure out how to not have this bitterness.
B: I talked with my therapist and I don’t punish friendships for this.