An Open Letter

S – During the trip S showed how volatile the friendship was and how he was willing to end it over something small rather than try to resolve it.

T – This shows how little I mean to him and ultimately means that he could leave my life at any moment over a miscommunication. This means I need to always walk on eggshells and try to predict all these situations or mind-read him so it does not explode. This isn’t reasonable, and so it’s essentially over.

F – I’m afraid of instability and losing my BFF, who I consider my lifelong friend.

B – I sack the friendship now to avoid it all.

T – There was a lot of stress on the trip as this was an 11 day thing, and of course this was everyone at essentially their worse. But regardless, this is something that’s consistent with what I know of him, but this doesn’t mean we can’t be friends. I just need to understand that I cannot rely on him in that sense, but absolutely can just randomly text, play games, or send stuff with. I should also look into more friend group options for hobbies I enjoy doing.

F – I still feel shitty, but at least it’s like a non-nuclear option. I think this is the healthier approach, of keeping things at an arms distance to avoid the issues. Not everyone has to be super entwined with my life in that sense, and he can still be a fun friend to interact with.

B – We still stay friends the way we have been, but I also look for other people to become close with for my own needs.