An Open Letter

Sorry to myself for forgetting yesterday night, I was all over the place with preparing for the cruise and also hitting masters (hooray!).

Me and A went to the singles mixer because bingo was a bust, and we just sat in the corner not taking to anyone and dying laughing. We eventually went and talked to one person, and one thing led to another and we all made a group of people. We went to a music bar, then we brought them to the comedy show. During the main set, the guy brought up a girl on stage and I kept getting egged on so I kept cheering and clapping loudly and standing up on the balcony, and eventually the comedian told me to come down. I wasn't expecting that, but he eventually brought me on stage and asked me about my job, my fico score, and if I worked out. To the last point he asked if I had abs and to show them and I flexed as well as I could and lifted my shirt and the crowd kinda erupted; one lady in the front row stood up and started cheering and the guy even made fun of her for that. So that's a huge confidence boost LOL. But also the girl is from San Diego, and is only 10 minutes away from me! We talked afterwards and went to a club with both of our groups, and had a nice night. On the cruise messaging app she asked me to come to yoga and I said of course, and then she sent a follow up saying “im not kidding, pull up 😳😅” and sent hearts afterwards.

It's crazy how much success I can get by being myself and not having to fake who I am to fit a mold I imagine. Maybe I can be loved and wanted as I am. What a beautiful thought.