An Open Letter

I felt a pretty hollow longing today. Earlier today I thought about how much it sucks to not have a mom growing up. And how I can’t have that now. I know plenty of people don’t have a mother either, but usually it feels like they have some sort of replacement family member, like an aunt or a grandma. Instead, I just had a Mom who neglected me. I know that there are reasons for everything, and that manifests itself in the way I am currently – I would not be me with a different childhood. But I still kinda wish I didn’t low-roll the family aspect.