How weird it is to come full circle on this

Super short post since I’m barely lucid, it’s almost 3 in the morning. We stopped playing games like 3 hours ago and then just sat talking the rest of the time, and just opened up and went through each others tiktok likes to harass them lmao.

I turned on my camera a few times and I was weirdly self-conscious about my body, not from insecurity but because I don’t want to look attractive or muscular. I just think it’s a funny horseshoe coming from being super insecure about my looks, to not wanting to show off.