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I give me a ride home today since it was pretty close by for us, and holy shit his car is so cool. I was talking with J about How I feel like I struggle to really connect with Him and I think it’s mostly because of my discomfort around men. He really hasn’t given me any reason to be wary of him, I honestly try to feel guilty for treating people unfairly in this sense. I think I find it hard to see men as potentially good friends, I think I’m always kind of waiting for the shooter to find out they aren’t really good people for some reason or another. and it’s strange because with women, I very much give benefit of the doubt and I assume kind of the best. And it’s funny because I don’t really think I’ve had any experiences where I have been tricked by a male friend. But I have had bad experiences with female friends and I still give them benefit of the doubt. It’s just a strange thing.