An Open Letter

My projector came yesterday and it surprisingly works incredibly well and I'm pretty happy because underneath it is just Android so it runs very smoothly. I was also able to connect it to my headphones and use the built-in YouTube app and I put it on the roof above my bed and was just laying down watching videos cuddling hash. I kind of realized with my wall of paper where I just mark whatever it kind of blocks off what would be a good wall for the projector so I can either keep it aimed at the roof or get rid of part of that wall which I'm not exactly sure what I'm going to do about, and I also realized if I'm going to have people over I may want to hide some parts of the wall which I guess becomes disingenuous to the entire point of it. I also matched with one of S's friends, And I found out because S messaged me about it. She also then said that that friend is always asking her to go party and she keeps putting that off but it could be a fun activity to all do together, and that for Halloween she was going to ask me if I wanted to go to wildcat anyway. I don't really know if I believe that and I did my best to voicing my concern about how I felt a little bit betrayed with her going to parties with her new friends without a word to me because last year we all went to parties together. Combined with the other things it kind of feels like I just got replaced and she didn't think about me enough to even tell me oh hey sorry there's this party going on that I probably can't invite you to. So instead I kind of just got blindsided and have to scramble to find party friends. Oh well what can you do.