An Open Letter

I guess I kinda did have expectations and circumstance led them to fail. I want to feel like I matter, and not just when I’m withdrawn. It feels like I only get care when someone sees me in pain. I think I’m an incredibly difficult person, since I’m so complex. I want E to care about my pleasure, and I want it to not be something I feel like I have to beg for. It feels so sad to have to ask someone to care about you in the way you want, and for that to not happen.