Launch
I told myself that tomorrow I’m going to make my Hinge public and stop being a coward. I’ve talked with several friends and they’ve also said that it feels good and there are Little things here and there that I could do, but I don’t need that. I’m never going to be ready and I’m always going to think that there’s something small here or there that I could change or something that I’m missing and if I wait for the perfect day, the perfect day will never come. I think it’s a little bit cruel for me to be dating or talking with people that I feel like I wouldn’t actually want to be in a relationship with. I find myself making excuses we’re trying to find reasons why I shouldn’t date people. It’s rough because I don’t think that should feel like, and the scary thing is because I have felt loved before and I worry that every time it should look different from what I have learned.