An Open Letter

I decided that I'm going to get back on hinge. I remember before A I had a conversation with an AI chatbot trying to understand why I would have motives for dating. It was mostly because I understood how virtually all of my niches can be filled through other avenues, and how I didn't see what benefit to my life having a girlfriend would have. And I was mostly caught up in the logistics of different hypothetical situations. And then I ended up having my relationship with A, and even though I knew it was going to be a relatively short-term one with an end date, it did center my course again. I've kind of realized how far I've drifted from my pre-college dream of a happy marriage, where I would fall asleep hugging my pillow dreaming about hugging my future wife instead. I think I've started to learn more and more how much I can love, mostly in the way of learning more about myself, and also the platonic love that I have with my friends. And also I guess the love for strangers. I'd like to look for a loving relationship where where I feel secure, safe, and also loved in return.