An Open Letter

I came home from my date and saw that my microphone cover was missing. I got worried because there’s no way it just falls off, as it’s pretty tight and doesn’t even slip off normally. I looked around and then said the first thing in a few weeks to my housemate – asking if he knew what happened. He said, “Maybe the wind blew it off.” I’ve had my window open the entire year, the microphone stand is behind my monitors, and also was facing upright. Meaning the wind would have had to magically blow from bottom up, and also pull it off the microphone itself. Either way, I tried to give the benefit of the doubt and looked around and found nothing. After looking through my entire room to make sure Hash didn’t swallow it or eat part of it, I found it tucked behind my desk, on the side of my PC. This is first of all, TOWARDS the window, where the wind would have been “blowing” from. It was also blocked by my monitor, and hidden BEHIND the desk, meaning there’s no way it fell that way. Also, it was put in a place where it was perfectly out of sight from the front, but reachable if someone wanted to put it there. It also had no bites or any marks to show that Hash touched it, and it was anyway in a place that Hash could physically not reach.

I confronted him, asking if he knew how that could have happened, and he said “I don’t know, if I wanted to annoy you don’t you think I would have taken something else?”. I didn’t say that he did it, and he basically snitched on himself. I’m fucking livid, as he’s been retaliating for a while for the things he’s been doing wrong, and I DIDN’T EVEN ESCALATE IT TO MANAGEMENT. My RA said that I was fully able to escalate it since he was violating the lease also, and I said not to. This was especially painful for me because Mama used to hide my personal belongings when she was upset with me, and wouldn’t say anything and deny that she did it. This has always been a very triggering thing for me, and so this set that off very badly because I always get suspicious and feel like I’ve been stolen from when things go missing. I wish I could get revenge or something because I’ve just sat down and taken all of his passive-aggressive bullshit. He even keeps filling up his trash can in the bathroom with stuff like dirty napkins and floss, and won’t throw it out. He also keeps purposefully leaving the bathroom door open, and so when I get home sometimes Hash has gotten into that and brings the dirty tissues into my bed and shreds them up and eats parts. That hurts his stomach and I see it in his stool sometimes which is scary to me because I don’t want him to get hurt. I wish I didn’t have to sit down and just take it.