An Open Letter

There were a lot of things I wanted to write today, but they're kind of short-circuited I guess. I remember when I was going to park my car how I wanted to write down today how I started to finally feel like myself again. But a wrench kind of got stuck I guess.

T and I had our whole conversation a few days ago and I was kind of happy because I feel like the first fight is when you really get to learn if a friendship will last or not. And I thought things were good, but I've been fairly socially busy and I felt like there was some weird tension and that we were more distant than we were before. I saw they sent a message in the server, and then I looked at Instagram where they had seen my messages and not responded. I had also sent them messages on discord that they did not respond to, and I can see that they are online. It sucks because without communication there's not really anything I can do, y'know? And that makes it tough to have this be a long-term friendship. It's a shame, but I'm also really happy that I have a diverse support network of friends because I don't feel like I'm drowning or anything close to that. It just sucks though, because I was hoping we would be good friends for a long time. And maybe we still will be, maybe she's dealing with something else or she just needs some time or space. Lord knows I'll anyway be busy for the next few days.