Medication
So I Have my bupropion that I was now prescribed, but I haven’t taken it yet. Part of me hopes that I can wait until I try mushrooms again, and if that is enough, then I do not need to start medication for my depression. But also things have just gotten way worse. This week has been a pretty consistent struggle with suicidal thoughts and it’s something that I’ve had the privilege of not being used to for a while. And honestly, I kind of just want some kind of hope that this will change and I wish I knew what caused this rather than just assuming it was because of all of the birthday stuff, because that feels excessive.