Moving on
I keep thinking about how Huberman said he heavily respects people who have the strength to end things with people when it’s bad, without the need for it to end in a “good” way. I’ve been thinking about that a lot in the context of A, because regardless of her I think that this is clearly not a good thing for me, and there is just so much extra time and mental stability I am paying to try to end with some notion of things being good. Maybe they don’t have to end good, especially with the consistent pattern of the way I’ve felt from her actions. Regardless if things would change, it’s not like I’m obligated or really wanting to gamble on that anymore. It’s not like there’s a shortage of people in this world, and so I’d like to have the respect for myself to be able to step away from A to make space for those people. I just went and removed her on social media, and I can’t really bring myself to block her on anything unfortunately, so she can still text me. But I think to me this marks moving on.