An Open Letter

I didn’t really expect to feel this pull, but today once I left friends I felt a bit of that loneliness. I thought about the ideal situation of feeling comfortable with A again, and thought about the best-case scenario of her being sweet and caring to me. I have to remind myself about how that’s not reality, and also how hard it is to even remember the last time she showed that she cared about me. I think it was early on in the relationship when she got me a pack of candy, like sour patch kids. She isn’t the person I’m hoping for, and it’s going to suck but I just won’t have certain niches filled for the forthcoming future. I’ll live, and I’ll be doing better once I move on.