New people
I was playing games with T like normal, and there was a person in our games that we were joking around and so after a bit, we invited them to Call with us and they seemed very friendly. I feel like it’s kind of surprising in a way how often it feels like people just could’ve stumbled into my life in different avenues. I think about the people at the gym that I have recently met and have been really friendly at first, but I guess I also feel like with all of these people or at least a large majority of them friendships start off with I guess too much of an expectation for me, I feel like the friendships are all going to be much more reliable and faster case than what happens in practice and that caused me a decent amount of strike and I guess by saying it out loud I recognize that this is more Reid of my experience with friendships being really intense rapid things because of how I grew up and so even though I think I have recovered from that enough to be at the point where I’m more appropriately pacing my interactions with people, I think I might still both expect a lot more from people than is reasonable, and I might still come off as two. I guess that’s something to be aware of and it kind of sucks because I don’t have any kind of like universal framework or benchmark or something like that that I could use to say oh this is what this is what is normal so far but what can you do you know?