An Open Letter

I’ve already started daydreaming of another car. I also talked with my therapist today about the hedonic treadmill that S brought up when I was excited to buy my current car. My therapist said that one of the views of philosophy is that the hedonic treadmill applies when you feel like you need something to fill a hole in your life, and when you believe that something will give you happiness. Almost like when you feel you need something. I think that’s something I can be aware of, but also something that I may try to game in my own mind – if I can convince myself that something that would be part of the hedonic treadmill is not, does that mean I’m deluding myself or that I’m breaking free from it? I’m not sure if I’m even making sense at this point, for some reason I’ve had a bad headache and my brain just isn’t working today.