Obsession
I watched the movie obsession today with some friends, and while I knew that it was a horror movie, and that there were several dark topics, I didn’t expect there to be a scene where, spoiler, he tried to commit suicide in the bathroom with pills. I don’t like to really use this word or admit it I guess, but I think I got triggered by that. Immediately felt like the depression part of my brain started to take over, and aggressively. When it got to the part where she was holding him crying as he dies in her arms, I couldn’t help but remind myself about how no one would do that for me. I know it’s also not true but it was just such a dominating thought in my head. I remembered how I tried to kill myself the same way, and I just physically started to shut down. The movie ended, and people started getting up and the lights turned on, but I couldn’t help myself but stare at the screen and not move. I started to panic a little bit because I knew that my friends would want to talk or something like that and I would’ve be able to because I was frozen and I kept trying to get myself to break out of it, but I would not. After I dropped off my friend, I just kind of sat there numb, and I had to consciously not do anything reckless while driving back. It honestly hurt to watch that scene.