An Open Letter

I opened up a random social media I made for one purpose, and not use again – and accidentally clicked on the button to send a friend a message. In the pop-up window, it mentioned “This person is only accepting messages from people they follow”, which is a completely normal thing to have on a public social media site, but on top of it I was on a completely fresh blank account, on a social media site they don’t use frequently, one where they don’t even know I had to make an account.

AND I STILL FELT HURT. Like how stupid can my brain be? I just messaged this person, I have no logical reason to feel threatened or saddened by this, but immediately my gut reaction is to sucker punch myself by saying “Oh they don’t care about me”.

It’s almost laughable how ill a knee-jerk reaction thought that is, and I’d find it funny if it wasn’t my brain that got saddened by that.