An Open Letter

E was asking when the mercy skin leaves the shop, since she wanted to buy it. I immediately bought credits so I could gift her, and turns out you can’t gift lol. So I bought her credits to her account so she could get it. I don’t usually like to spend money on people for gifts, since I am afraid of things being transactional or being used, but this is different. I want to show her that I care about her, and how I really want her to be happy. I feel like I can be somewhat difficult at times, mostly because I get sad or fill myself with self-loathing. Even though it doesn’t affect her because I’m pretty good at being responsible about it, I still feel bad. I want her to feel consistently loved by me, even when I am low. I care about her a lot.