An Open Letter

I came back from LA with friends just now. It was me and 4 other girls, and we got food several times, and spent a ton of the day at this Korean sauna. We spent a good amount of time in the nude portions which were gender separated and I had a blast, but then we grouped back up and spent a lot of time in the coed area. We all napped together, traded some massages, yapped and relaxed. And then we drove home and got ready to see eachother again tomorrow for a movie with other friends. And no one was afraid of me, in the way my mother instilled into me. My friends feel safe and comfortable around me, and do not view me as a monster solely due to my gender. I have friends who feel safe with me, want to have sleepovers, and accommodate me. I wish I could go back and tell younger me this, and counter condition sooner this schema I carried forth for so many years.