An Open Letter

I wanna caveat this entire thing as I usually do – this is just me lashing out a bit and being egotistical. I wonder why I end up swinging in this direction sometimes, I guess that’s an analysis for another time.

Yesterday was a day where I felt like I got negged a lot by two friends, and it sucked because it was when I had invited the girl I am interested in and talking to. It kinda felt like one of them was flirting with her and putting me down in a way, and also being disrespectful with my place. I remember when we were getting ready to go back to my place another friend was looking at my car and was wondering what the badge was, and the person who was negging me said “it’s the founders edition badge”, and I said nah it’s not that it’s the ludicrous badge, the plaid equivalent. He then disagreed with me and he was like nah thats the founder, and I said “I’m pretty sure I know what it is lol its my car”. He was still confident and I told him to search it up and then he saw what it was, and then understood it was the upgrade, and when he was walking around my car more he said “damn it’s even on the seats” and I wasn’t thinking much and said “I sure hope so, I paid 20k for it” and his jaw dropped a bit, and he didn’t believe me. He asked why I spent that much on it and all I really said was why not, and the hp. I know I’m very privileged in terms of money, but I also know that I am very smart and successful. I had my other friend get shocked when I mentioned I spent 60k on the car, as she didn’t know how much the upgrade was either. Honestly it felt great.

Additionally since we were going swimming, when I got into my swim trunks a friend said “everyone is going swimming and then it looks like Anshuman is going to a bodybuilding competition. I thought that was very funny because I had no pump at all, and I wasn’t flexing so I was barely showing any muscle.

These are little things here and there, but I think because my ego felt like it took a few blows I find myself savoring them.