An Open Letter

I had a bad first half of my day today, and weirdly enough everything that happened was no reason to be sad. I hit 215x3 paused, which is way more than before and still felt upset because I thought I could do 4. I also saw a friend and felt some concerns rear their ugly head back. I also was weak on every single exercise. All of these problems are fully logical and nothing to be upset about.

I coped by doing calf raises, specifically 60,000lbs of them. I finally did 400x20! I also ran .7 mi, and I didn't have any pain this time.

When I had physical therapy they suggested to do calf raises, and I started at like 130. Near the middle of summer I hit 310 and was so happy I ran over to said friend to tell them. Today I only told Lilac. It's a shame, I even sent the proud message to other friends but deleted it soon after. I started off way behind and now I'm ahead, but to me I'm the same. Before I could share achievements and friends would be proud of me, but now I'm worried they think I'm showing off or bragging. It's no fair.

I wish someone would get hyped for me. I hope I can hit 1k within a year. That would be one of the biggest achievements of my life I think. I wonder if S would help me bake a pie if I can do it. I'm so grateful for them being supportive of me, but I'm afraid to say things I'm proud of for fear of them thinking I'm bragging. God I think I'm just being stupid. I cannot wait till they hit a plate.