Skytamer
It’s a really weird thing to try to be open about depression when I’m used to childhood or high school where I would just constantly sad post on my private Instagram to friends or with my discord status. And I think that’s not necessarily the greatest way to do it, but at the same time I think that it is important that I learn how to express that I am depressed, if nothing else just so I don’t feel like I have to keep up some kind of mask. I feel like there’s such a big dissonance whenever I hear from people that I am a happy person, and I think part of that is because I really do suffer in silence I’m used to depression being something of shame that I’m supposed to hide and a burden. And I think that they’re very much is such thing as being too open or causing pressure from other people from constantly talking about it with the implication that they need to help you. I posted to close friends today about how I thought about killing myself driving home then had to catch myself thinking that and stop myself, and how I’ve been having to do that for the last two weeks and how it’s super tiring.