An Open Letter

I had my first date with J today, and While it was good, afterwards I felt kind of sad. I realized I learned a lot about her but she didn’t really learn much about me, because she didn’t ask any questions or try to follow up at all whenever I would say something. I ended up telling her over text, and she apologized a lot and asked me questions. I do appreciate that, but it did push on a nerve for me.

I thought about SVM and how each wrongly classified instance pushes the boundary towards the more correct solution, and I think dating is kind of like that. I think I’ve learned that I really want a partner that is interested in me and wants to know more, and wants to know what I’m thinking. I remember my relationship with A, and how I started to feel like she didn’t even know me. I want to feel like I don’t have to beg someone to see me. To be loved is to be seen.