An Open Letter

I went to send a reel to someone on Instagram and E’s Account showed up even though neither of us follow the other. I went out of my way to go and then block her account so that it does not randomly show up. It caught me off guard because she had changed her profile picture, and I have been good at not doing this until now, but when I went to block her I knew that I would see her bio and if I’m being honest I was hoping that there wouldn’t be a date of her and a new partner, and there wasn’t and honestly I am kind of thankful for that. I feel like that makes me believe more when she said that she wouldn’t date for a while if we broke up because it would mean a lot to her. But also even if it didn’t mean that to her, I’m happy that she’s not just jumping from relationship to relationship. And I’m also happy that I don’t have to deal with that mess of wondering about it or anything like that. And so hopefully by blocking her it doesn’t come back up again and I don’t have to face any kind of temptation to look. With all of the time that’s passed, I wish the best for her, and I also hope that she is a closed chapter in my life. I don’t hold any resentment towards her, and I have forgiven her because it no longer will affect me, she both will not have power or control over my life, but additionally I have worked on healing from the things that happened to me and now I do get benefits from learning more how to advocate for myself and understanding what things to look out for or so forth. I understand why people say that thing of I hope you get the world and I hope I never hear about it. I hope you’re well, and I hope her family well, but I also hope that I don’t hear about it. I am really thankful that passed me was strong enough to not retaliate or to be petty or to do anything like that because after everything that happened I can hold my head high with the whole experience.

Today I went to the beach with G, J and I, and we took a ton of photos. It was kind of funny because it was cloudy out, but it honestly matches my outfit pretty well so we take the winds where we can. At first we were just taking normal photos, and that quickly evolve into taking silly photos but we got a lot of really nice candid shots and I’m very happy that I have these photos of me now!