I know that it’s wrong to think, and ultimately unhealthy, but watching romance shows or seeing the random thing that reminds me of my original goal makes me yearn for that connection. I’ve spent the last few years focusing on making sure that my life is happy without the promise of a relationship, but I can’t shake the notion that once I find that person, life will be much better.
I know that it’s bad, but I can’t help but day dreaming when times get rough, almost like a drug. It’s incredibly easy to just fall into the soft promise of a warm relationship that will satisfy the niches I struggle to fill with platonic friends. I need to not fall victim to hope for a miraculous cure, and rather make sure I am happy with myself without depending on another person for that.