What I wish
I wish there was something I could make, say, paint or do to just put myself down somewhere. I wish I could convey how I feel, down from the highest nights to the lowest days.
I wish I could put it in such an unadulterated way, untainted by concerns of perception. I wish I could somehow put every piece of me down there to capture that feeling of wonder, and that feeling of overwhelming fear that comes as a consequence of that freedom.
I wish I somehow could