An Open Letter

I’m more or less writing this because of this video that I rewatched recently. Right now I am trying a different medication (Adderall), and as someone who has struggled with activation energy issues I wanted to write down this sentiment:

You won’t be ready. It won’t be perfect, there will be several things that are wrong, and there are other things you are waiting for for it to be correct – as once you have those things you will finally do that thing you wanted to do, right? Well no. That goalpost will always move until you psych yourself out enough that you never end up doing it. You won’t be more prepared, you aren’t good enough to do it, it will completely fail, and it will be a horrible experience.

But go ahead and do it anyway. It may go worse than you’d think, it may even go better. But you don’t have the luxury to wait around until every star aligns to go out and do the things that you want to do. Just go ahead and start it, take action toward it.

There’s a great chance it won’t work, people will laugh at you or mock you, and you will fail horribly. But let that liberate you in a weird way – if you can really accept that, and still do it there is genuinely nothing holding you back anymore. That fear of failure, judgment, being worse than you thought it would be, others laughing at you, etc. if you can still do it then that’s how to really get to where you want. Do it because you want it, and because you love it.

Be unapologetically you, do the things people will mock, do the things that are doomed to fail. Put your heart on your sleeve, and live like it’s your last chance because it fully is. Live a life where when you look back, you’re glad for every mistake you made.