A digital journal
I’m right now walking Hash, And I just have this Vague feeling about how I’m unhappy with my current life state. But I really want to remind myself that there aren’t necessarily big reasons to feel this way other than just the fact that this is what I’m used to in my comfortable state in my mind. But I also do have a lot of choice on perspective, if I choose to focus on the things where I feel good about my life then I will feel that way.
What a shit concert LOL but I’m just glad E was with me.
It’s so strange how I never write anything anymore. I feel like I’ve really cheapened this entire “project”, but to be honest, I have had an outlet in E since meeting her. I have my social needs met, and I have someone I can talk more than enough to. I’m not really sure how I’m supposed to have the urge to journal when I have that person there who wants to listen.
After the big O I feel that low when I’m low on chemicals, and I need to remember to just let my mind clear and not worry. I’m just low not sad.
Advent of code started! Only 12 days sadly this year.
Drove home, and then needed to throw up. But trips over. Love E so much.
I’m going to miss the P’s. It’s only been a few days but I feel a part of the family. I really hope I can see them again soon.
I end up getting stunlocked by them and it frustrates me because I know I’m sacrificing sleep and quality time with E’s family which I cherish.
E’s family threw me a surprise birthday. I cried in private after.
I’m currently in E’s house and holy shit. I love her family so much. I feel so included with warm hands.