An Open Letter

House purchased. Rough day though, I’m so stressed with work.

I’m at such a huge point in my life, but it’s also been such a nightmarishly stressful and shit day. Tomorrow will be better.

I love being able to spend my days with E. Four months flew by in the blink of an eye, mostly because she has felt like she’s been with me my whole life.

So about that, it’s 3:45. I do think however one nice thought from today was that I should set my goal in league to be hitting a certain number of games, rather than a certain rank.

Holy shit. I’m so happy E is here.

I did nothing today. Not even the gym. I honestly feel pretty ashamed and bad.

I feel like I’ve written about this before, but I had a really really good gym session with E today. We left around midnight, and it was 1 hr 40 minutes of legs, including 4 sets of bulgarian split squats. I felt so fucking alive. I almost cried at home while I told E about music and just art overall. Fuck man I’m happy to be alive.

Me and T just played a ton of arena and for the first time I kinda stopped trying so hard to win and was doing stupid shit like paladin ashe, or attack speed zilean. We actually ended up doing pretty damn good, and I ended with an ADAPt + master of duality katarina game, and I just checked and saw that I hit masters on arenasweats! It’s silly but I’m happy haha.

E on call released whatever was trapped in Pandora’s box, and I put it into a discord soundboard clip as soon as possible. Also I’m starting to feel like myself again which is nice, and I’ve set my goal to be solve one rubiks cube blindfolded this month.

I guess just a day of plans of things to do helped, along with the gym. It wasn’t a flawless day at all, but it’s enough for me to feel ok again.